Once Upon A Time in My Twenties: Ignoring My Mental Health

I Ignored My Mental Health

Do not ignore any unresolved childhood traumas, issues and any unhealthy behaviors/emotions you have.

I was very angry as a pre-teen and it intensified over the years. This anger however only presented itself around my family. When I was around my friends or co-workers I was very much holding in my frustration any time I was offended or was too scared to speak up- but I eventually ended up having an outburst. I had a few moments where I am sure I was a bit of a jerk as a child but for the most part I always held in my feelings. I remember when I was younger my mother, my siblings and I went into a shelter for a while to get away from my father because he was getting physical with our mother. To this day I remember walking into a room seeing a bunk bed and a single twin bed and thinking “We can’t all fit in here.” I remember the smell from the buffet style dinner and one specific item that was being served. To this day I still detest that specific food item because the smell is connected to that experience. I do not remember when we went back to our apartment but we did. My father stopped abusing my mother but my personal trauma with him after that preceded years later was never addressed.